A Quest for Resilience, One Cliché at a Time.

A Quest for Resilience, One Cliché at a Time.

The seas have been rough these past few years, my Eden in peril, my Love drowned in tears. But over the horizon, a ship came to see - Is this the one that would rescue me?

My Métier!

Oh, how beautiful she was; or was it just a fleeting mirage?

I was still rich in hope you see. So I kissed my family good-bye and our convoy separated at sea. We ventured forth, the skies were blue, an island awaited, bold and new.

But storms arose along the way; the price of dreams we had to pay.

I watched a storm take a Captain away. i carry guilt to this day.

Lightning struck in the middle of the storm. Turns out, my colour was a “con". It didn’t matter, storms move on.

On another night, my brother signalled my radio,

“Lightning struck here. Our mother’s nearly gone. There's nothing we can do but hold on. It’s in God's hands now, we can't turn back. Don’t change course, stay on track. Rowing home would mean we’ve given up. Keep Faith alive; we have no choice.”

I still remember hearing fear through his calm, stoic voice. By sheer luck, we got through that night.

One storm gently broke my doors, leaving me with a pounding concussion; the chaos just brief disruption. It didn’t matter, storms move on.

But as I lay to rest on my canvas bed, another great storm loomed ahead. One i thought I had faced before, but with fierce rage, it shook my core. Wrecking my ship from deck to keel, a force too brutal, too real to heal.

i screamed,

i cried,

i climbed,

i punched,

Nothing I did was enough.

Focus on the Light”, my father preached from his frail ship.

If there is even One”, I muttered from mine. Even from afar, through the fog, I could feel his smile. For a moment there I thought,

His storms were tempestuous than mine, still, he smiles and believes in the Light”.

Checkmate

Dad won that round.

But it didn’t matter; my ship was sinking. I(i) held her tight and felt her heart breaking. With burning love, i whispered in her ear,

It’s okay, my love, i’m here. Let go for now, goodbye my dear. I vow to breath life into you someday. But for tonight, we must part ways.

i watched my Hope float away that night; an invaluable currency, I can’t seem to find.

What’s Next on the Horizon? I(i) sought the Light. Another ship to jump on? Whats the point?

Learn to swim,” I(i) heard distant chants, they were the Captains on the other side of chance.

Instead of bracing to go down, i paddled on, refusing to drown.

I stood up straight, shoulders back, head high. Fear numbing the pain, and no life jacket nearby, i decide to comply. With unwavering resolve, I(i) take the plunge.

It’s freezing.

I(i) am alive.

Now swim

Until next time,
Minoli Christeen


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